Down in the dumps

Feeling so deflated
My consultant didn't go the way I was hoping it would.
Although she thinks everything is fine which is good, I just can't shake the feeling that everything is not ok. I ended up bursting into tears trying to explain to her that I am worried that he's not moving as much as he use to and his movements are no where near as strong as they used to be, she didn't even seem concerned that I hadn't feel him move all morning. And even now he's barely moved.
She measured me as 31 and plotted it on the chart as 33 so it looked like my bump is growing nicely. If had plotted it in the right place then she would have seen that my bump has now dropped the bottom centile line. She's not concerned at all about my bump measuring 4 weeks behind. It took me to pretty much break down for her to actually book me an appointment to check baby's movements and measurements. If I hadn't cried and got so emotional I don't think she would have done anything.

It bugs me that all the midwives I've seen at the hospital are concerned about baby, my midwife yesterday said baby feels small, yet my consultant today has no concerns.

I have to wait till Tuesday for my appointment, if I get to see a different consultant that day I am going to ask about getting baby out as soon as. I know some of my reasons are selfish, but I feel like something is not quite right. I can't put my finger on it.
I'm so sick of being in pain, I can't hold my son without ending up in pain. The cramping just seems to be getting worse everyday.