Had my growth scan

I had my growth scan this morning. It went ok. I am 35+4 weeks and baby is estimated to weigh 4lb 13oz at the moment. Which brings me down to the bottom centile line, where as before he was a little above it. He's measurements for his stomach has also dropped to the bottom centile line. So because of that I have to go back next week for another growth scan. So they must be a little concerned if they want me back next week. The consultant at the hospital did try and make a joke of it by saying well we don't expect you to have a 10lb baby.

I am not surprised he's only gained a pound in almost a month. I haven't gained anything in 3 weeks.

I ended up going back to the hospital this evening.
I phoned them up as my C-section scar felt like it was burning and I was also having some cramping. I thought that they'd just give me some advise over the phone, but nope they wanted me to go in and get checked.
Got there waited 45 minutes before being seen too. they were pretty busy. When I got seen to I got hooked up to a CTG machine. I was on there for over an hour. Every now and then they would say, oh we'll leave you on there a bit longer or oh another 10 minutes and we'll get you off. I got checked to see if I was dilating. luckily I'm not. Was given painkillers for the pain.
I was very almost admitted tonight. If I had not said the pain had eased they would have kept me in. The pain had not really got any better, but I just wanted to go home. The pain has eased now though. I've been told to take it easy and relax. if the pain gets worse or I am worried then to call again.

Finally going to get answers, (I hope)

Well if you read my blog often you already know I don't really post on the weekends. Nothing really happens. It's the same old same old.
I can't remember if I posted Friday or not. I don't think I did.
Well anyway Friday was my 5th hospital trip, due reduced fetal movements. Got there, got hooked up to the monitor and the baby got hiccups. It sounds so strange hearing the hiccups on that thing. His heart rate when above 160bmp quite a few times, even went above 170bpm which scared me a little, but the midwife there didn't seem too concerned.

Tomorrow I an appointment at the hospital. I'm hoping it's actually for a scan this time. I can't think of any other way you would check baby's growth. I'm hoping that tomorrow will prove my gut feelings right.
Baby seems to be having another lazy day today. He hasn't moved much. He has moved, but not much but it is only half 2 in the afternoon, so we will see how things go.

Down in the dumps

Feeling so deflated
My consultant didn't go the way I was hoping it would.
Although she thinks everything is fine which is good, I just can't shake the feeling that everything is not ok. I ended up bursting into tears trying to explain to her that I am worried that he's not moving as much as he use to and his movements are no where near as strong as they used to be, she didn't even seem concerned that I hadn't feel him move all morning. And even now he's barely moved.
She measured me as 31 and plotted it on the chart as 33 so it looked like my bump is growing nicely. If had plotted it in the right place then she would have seen that my bump has now dropped the bottom centile line. She's not concerned at all about my bump measuring 4 weeks behind. It took me to pretty much break down for her to actually book me an appointment to check baby's movements and measurements. If I hadn't cried and got so emotional I don't think she would have done anything.

It bugs me that all the midwives I've seen at the hospital are concerned about baby, my midwife yesterday said baby feels small, yet my consultant today has no concerns.

I have to wait till Tuesday for my appointment, if I get to see a different consultant that day I am going to ask about getting baby out as soon as. I know some of my reasons are selfish, but I feel like something is not quite right. I can't put my finger on it.
I'm so sick of being in pain, I can't hold my son without ending up in pain. The cramping just seems to be getting worse everyday.

Midwife Appointment

Today I had my 34 week midwife appointment. It was a home visit, which is always handy,
We quickly went over my birth plan, I'm still unsure of what type of birth I want. There is a part of me that wants to go for VBAC because then my body will release the hormones that help with bonding, but there is apart of me that just wants to go for the section. I know after I can get skin to skin which would also help with bonding, so I just don't know what to do.
My midwife seemed to agree with the midwife from Monday about getting baby out at 36 weeks. I have to wait till tomorrow to see if the consultant agrees. My midwife said that baby does feel small.

In all honesty I've got to the point where I want baby out. I know I am only 34+5 weeks but all the BH and cramping, the backaches, heartburn and leg cramps are now just getting me down. To top that off my morning sickness seems to be coming back.

I think being told that this pregnancy is heading the same way my first did is worrying me. We have all the tiny baby clothes, we've brought size 0 nappies, so we are all prepared for a tiny baby, but it's more that this baby could be earlier then my first, which would mean a higher risk of him being in NICU.

Tonight may well be a long night, but I know tomorrow I should get some answers.

Not what i expected

Well after one of the worst nights sleep in this pregnancy so far and going most of the day on an hours sleep I feel awake enough to do some blogging.

I woke up this morning after only getting an hours sleep, bathed my little one and got ready to leave to get to the in laws, as I though I was having a growth scan today.

I get to the hospital and it turned it's not a growth scan I was booked in for, but to be hooked up to a fetal heart monitor. To say I was gutted is an understatement.

After waiting an hour to be seen we get in there and I explain to the midwife there what I thought today was about, she went to see if anything had been booked and it hadn't so she said that it might be a case of waiting to see what the consultant wants to do. She said that because baby is showing some signs of IUGR they may decided to do a few more fetal heart monitoring and then induce me at 36 weeks.

My bump was measuring 2 weeks behind today, blood pressure was normal, which is great. might help that I had a cup of water before going in. I was only on the monitor about 20 to 30 minutes and according to that I had 4 contractions.
I have been cramping on and off all day though. Now that I have taken some painkillers the cramps aren't to bad.

Before I left, the midwife said that if I get worried about his lack of movement then phone up as I am experiencing reduced movements quite a bit now, she even gave me the direct number to the day maternity unit so that I don't waste so much credit trying to get hold of someone if I did get concerned.

I feel silly having to phone up so much, but because she says he is starting to show signs of IUGR its best to get any worries checked.

emergency growth scan

Well yesterday I did my 3rd trip to hospital in a week.
This time it wasn't for cramping but for reduced fetal movements.
I hadn't felt my baby move as much as usual. Some will say that is normal and to be expected as there is less room for baby to move., but having looked on the NHS website before phoning the hospital it states on there,
movements should not reduce, but feel more like rolls then kicks.
So I went in and the midwife there took one look at my bump and said "oh your small".
She had a look at my notes and noticed I had a growth scan at the beginning of the month and asked if I had another arranged. When I said I hadn't she booked one there and then.
My growth chart shows baby being just above the 10th centile line and measuring 2 weeks behind, and my bump started dropping on the chart.
So now I have a growth scan booked for Monday.
To say that I'm worried about it would be a understatement. I am bricking it.
I've noticed that my bump has seemed to slow down in growth. I weight myself this morning and have lost 1lb, could be my scales on the brink.
So this weekend is going to be a long one. Monday is going to be a decider of whether this baby will be arriving early I think.
From the start I have been worried about having another IUGR baby. But on the plus side we still have all our little boys old clothes. so we have nothing to get.

Another trip to the hospital

Oh the Joys of pregnancy.
My first was so easy compared to this.
yesterday I had a rest day as instructed to by the hubby, it helped a little, but went to bed having yet more cramps and Braxton hicks. I didn't have a great night sleep.
I just couldn't get comfortable at all, kept getting really hot, to the point I was sweating buckets. it's the middle of winter.
The cramping was worse this morning. I had lost a fair but of my plug yesterday and a little but more this morning. So phoned up my maternity ward, to be told to come in.
They did the same checks as last time, checked blood pressure, which was normal 104/62 and my plus that was a little high 101bmp.
put me on the baby monitor, they said baby was happy my when I look at the chart and see how many times his heart rate dropped I kinda beg to differ. But hey they are the midwife they know what to look out for.
they checked my cervix, which is closed so that's good, and baby is engaged. 4/5th.
They said the loss of my plug could have been due to having been checked at the weekend.
I am to take it easy and to look after myself, their words.
Like that's going to be easy with a 10 month old who's into everything at the moment.
I was told that if I get any bright red blood then to call up, makes me think they are a little concerned about pre-term labour.
The midwife there wasn't happy that my bump has seemed to shrunk and is now measuring 2 weeks behind, but because my actual midwife wrote in my notes to book a growth scan at 34 weeks if still concerned about growth, they didn't book one there.
So now it's a weeks wait before I see my midwife. hopefully she'll she where they have plotted me and actually book a scan without me having to say something.
Right as it has just gone midnight and I am feeling restless and uncomfortable and have a bit of cramping I'm going to end it there and try and get some sleep.

A trip to the hospital

Ok so lets start of with what happened at my midwife appointment last week.
I realised that I didn't actually post anything about it. Well that I can remember of.

My blood pressure was actually normal for a change. Lower end of normal but it was normal. For the first time my midwife didn't turn to me and ask are you drinking enough. My bump was measuring 32 even though I was one day of 33 weeks, but a week here of there doesn't really matter, just as long as bump is growing. Baby's heart rate was a little higher then usual, 150bpm instead of 140bpm.
I asked about having another growth scan to make sure baby is actually growing. She said that I'd have to wait till my next appointment with her before she could book anything, as she needs to make sure my bump is still growing, but if it comes to my next appointment and I am still worried about baby's growth then she'll sort one out anyway.
Of course I want another growth scan. Having one is not enough to make sure my baby is growing.

I feel like my bump has not really grown the past 2 weeks. It kinda feels smaller.
What do you guys think?

 

 

I feel like my bump has changed a little since taking the photo as well.

 

Friday night was the worst night sleep I have ever had. I think I must have got about an hour broken sleep all together that night. My little woke up about 8 times over the course of the night.

I think it was because he's teething and he was cutting his top 2 teeth. At about 6am I gave up trying to get to sleep so started doing house work. In the space of an hour and a half I had done half a tone of washing up, that I had been waiting for hubby to do as he said he would, put a load of washing on, folded a load of clothes and tidied the living room.

About half 7 hubby comes down with our little one and tells me to go to bed. I finally fell asleep at about 8am, woke up at about half 11 12. So I got some sleep in the end.

We spent most of Saturday in doors. Being the weekend though we always go visit the in laws.

We had a lovely stir fry that my little one decided to bring back up all over hubby. Sorry if you are eating and have just read that.

 

I couldn't look I was eating myself, but apparently it looked like hubby had come every where. it was in the right place for it. That night little one slept ALL night. It was great. We all got the much needed sleep.

 

 

yesterday I woke up at about 11am (I know my little actually let us sleep that long, he was playing happily in his cot) with some cramping. It was on and off, but didn't really think much of it at the time.

We had to go into Havant so I could get some bits for my hospital bag. The whole way there I was cramping on and off and had really bad back ache. All the way round the shops I was cramping on and off, still not thinking much of it but was starting to get a little concerned about it. Got to hubby's parents at about half 3 4 still cramping.

My sister in law tells me it's normal and it's just Braxton hicks, Didn't have the heart to tell her that I've been having Braxton hicks since i was 17 weeks and that Braxton hicks aren't meant to hurt.

The whole time we where there my back was in so much pain and I was cramping on and off. It wasn't till we left at about 8pm that I burst into tears. I just couldn't take it anymore.

So hubby pulled up and phone up the hospital. Told them what was going on and they told him to bring me in.

So it was back to the in laws to drop off our little one. Hubby's mum had a feeling we would be back. Got to the hospital got strapped to a fetal monitor to make sure baby was ok and that I wasn't actually contracting.

Luckily baby is fine. I get told that I have a irritable uterus, then they started going on about pre-term labour and that I'm might have to be admitted for the night. They checked my cervix and luckily that was closed. So I was sent home with some painkillers and told to rest and that if I get the cramping again or it gets worse then just to phone back up. 

It had just gone midnight before we finally got home, felt really bad for our little one, having to wake him up to put him in his car seat and again to get him out.

 

 

Today, well. I've almost finished my hospital bag, I am now resting. I had some cramps earlier. Sorry another TMI bit. At about lunch time I felt like there was something leaking out of me so went to the loo, when I wiped, I saw what I think was my mucus plug. It looked like snot, with a yellowy colour to it and a slight brown tinge.

Because i was having cramping with it, I phone up my hospital, to be told to relax and take some painkillers. if the cramping gets worse then to call back. Luckily the cramping hasn't got worse, but I don't know if that's just because I've had painkillers. I guess i'll be able to tell in a few hours. 

Damn RLS

I so need the next 7 weeks to hurry up. The RLS every night is just getting beyond a joke now.
The back pain is getting unbearable some days.
Now for the past week or so I have felt like baby is trying to break free. when he's really low down I can feel a bit of pressure on my cervix and a bit of sharp pain. I've been getting period pain type cramping. Braxton hicks haven't really changed much.

I'm going to have to make this one a really short one, my RLS is REALLY playing up and if I carry on typing my laptop is going to go flying. Hopefully my next post will be longer. Most likely be on Monday as it's now the weekend and it's always the same thing happening the weekends.

Midwife Tomorrow

Sorry it's been a few days since my last post again.
I've not been well. I've had a cold since Christmas eve and the last few days I've felt like utter rubbish from it. Hoping from now it will start getting better.

Over the weekend I was trying to get someone to see me about my dizzy spells as I didn't think they were normal. Well yesterday I finally got to see a doctor about them and it's not pregnancy related.
it's some sort of vertigo. basically because I clean my ears to often stuff has got into my ears causing the dizziness. With the added low blood pressure and low iron, it just made the dizziness that much worse.

My little boy has broken his top 2 teeth, he now has 4 teeth and looks like he may have another 2 coming through. He's also had a cold since Christmas, but he's had the end of it now. he's not so snotty and isn't coughing as much, but he's still waking quite a few times in the night.

Well tomorrow I have a midwife appointment, wasn't meant to see her till next week, but she had said if I get any concerns then to see her before hand. Well I am concerned about my Braxton hicks, they are happening more often and are a lot tighter some of them are quite painful, and I'm also concerned about the growth of my baby.
If you read my last post you'd know that at my growth scan some parts of him are measuring near on 2 weeks behind. He's a little above the bottom centile line and was estimated to weigh 3lb 12oz. 
I was 31+6 weeks and me being me thought I'd look up to see how much he should be weighing now, and I found that he is behind in his weight as well, not much though. At about 32 weeks they on average weight a little over 4lbs. I'm just concerned that his growth might be slowing down, just like it did with my first. Hopefully my midwife will be able to book another growth scan for me.

feel like i'm getting pushed pillar to post

Well if you read my last post you might know I'm currently getting treated for thrush. Oh the joys of pregnancy. It's so irritating. I feel like the pessarys have not really worked but I still have a few days left for the cream so hopefully that will work.

Thursday I had my growth scan. To be honest I really thought that baby would be measuring on track or a little ahead, just because of how uncomfortable, but nope. Parts of him are measuring about a week behind and others almost 2 weeks. The one thing that worries me is this is about the time my son either slowed down in his growth or stopped growing, and with it being the head that measuring almost 2 weeks behind it makes me worry it's the start of IUGR. I'm pretty sure I read some where that the head being smaller then it should be is a sign of IUGR, but the lady doing the scan didn't not seen concerned. I'm going to talk to my midwife about getting another scan just to make sure my baby is growing.

yesterday well that food shop day so nothing really happened that doesn't usually.

today is Saturday. I don't think I've actually posted on a Saturday before, but it does bring me to the title of the post.

Since I was 12 weeks I've been getting dizzy spells, as the pregnancy has gone on they've gotten worse. My step-mum keeps telling me I need to phone my midwife or a doctor about them. So this morning I tried phoning my doctors to get the out of hours number, which they don't have, so had to ring 111. The lady on the phone was lovely, sounded quite like the lady from the IT crowd (UK comedy), She said to ring my midwife as she was concerned it could be something more then just bad Braxton hicks and dizzy spells. So I tried ringing my midwife for her phone to be off. I then rang the hospital I am having my baby at. The lady there said it was all normal and I'm just feeling the Braxton hick more then some people would and that the dizzy spells are because of low blood pressure. When I told her the last time it was checked it was 84/40 she said I need to call my midwife first thing Monday morning to get an earlier appointment rather then waiting till the 16th for my next one.

I just feel like everything is going wrong, and that theres something more serious then just dizzy spells. So come Monday morning i'll be phoning up my doctors to get a appointment with my midwife as soon as. I wonder how this will turn out.

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year readers. Hope it was a good one for you all.

Mine was ok. As I said in my last post we were spending new years at the in laws, which we did.
The afternoon I found myself getting very uncomfortable wishing the next two months away. Sorry this next bit is a bit TMI but what you expect from a pregnancy blog. Any way I started noticing an itch inside my downstairs area. I asked my mum in law about it. I feel I can talk to her about most things, so wasn't too worried asking her about it. I asked if it was thrush, as I've never had it before so had no idea what the signs were. When she said it was I drag my hubby to the nearest pharmacy, who then sent me to a doctors. Being new years I thought we'd have to go to the nearest walk in clinic which is in Portsmouth. Luckily there was a doctor there who saw me even though I'm not with that surgery. He said that it is thrush gave me a prescription then it was a mad dash back to the pharmacy, We got there with 15 minutes to spare.

I was quite scared about having thrush, I have no idea what causes it and I've heard of horror stories about people going into labour because of it. whether there is any truth to it I don't know. 

Any way we go back to in the laws and spent the rest of the night catching up on Christmas specials that we have missed. We watched one where at the end they did a count down into new years and without even thinking about it we had got the ending of the programme timed exactly to the new year. So when they said happy new year. it was actually happy new year. We did have a good giggle about that.


Tonight me and hubby are back at home whilst our son is at his gran parents for the night. I am hoping he's not going to keep them up, he's not well and he's teething.

I have my growth scan tomorrow, a little nervous about it but excited at the same time. I have a feeling if this baby is not measuring on track he'll be measuring ahead. I just feel so big. I am defiantly bigger then I was with my first. We'll see tomorrow. I think that will be the decider if I have to have baby early or not.
Apart of me does just because I am getting so tired of being pregnant now. All the heartburn every night, the RLS day and night, the back pain, the Braxton hicks and all the other pains.